Depression

I’m not sure even where to start of how the last month or so has gone. I’ve been quite hormonal (actually, that’s very much an understatement), and whiny, and quite bitchy at times. I feel sorry for my hubby because when he comes home, he’s not very sure of what he’s walking into. Is he going to get his head bit off? Is his wife just going to look at him and start bawling? Is she going to start snarling and show her claws? Like I said, I feel sorry for him at times.

And what is the cause of the above? At times its lack of sleep; my babies have it down to a science - one’s asleep, the other’s awake. And that’s not necessarily a bad thing because then I’m not overwhelmed by both wanting my attention at the same time, especially if they both crying. :-D But in the afternoon, it would sure be nice to lay down and have some shut eye. At other times I know I am still fighting depression. Thank god the depression isn’t as bad as when I only had Osob but when you go days without a break from both kids, the tears/bitchiness comes way too easy. Hubby comes home from work and he’s tired and he wants a shower and a nap, which he’s perfectly entitled to. But there are times when he walks in the door and I immediately hand him a baby and say “there you go”. Kids seem to sense when mommy is at the end of her rope and they push her buttons even more then.

2 weekends ago we had a bout of the flu in our house. Alhumdillah, we all survived it but you know what the hardest part of being a parent is? When your kids are sick and hurting and there is ABSOLUTELY NOTHING that you can do to make them feel better. You feel so helpless. And then I got sick, you end up being a bigger baby than your kids!

Okay, now enough with the bitching and onto the pictures. Thank you for listening!